Monday, June 16, 2008

Still Changing me

I have been slack again and not updating this blog, but, have no fear, I haven’t fallen off the wagon. I’ve been on WW yet for 16 weeks and while I have still only lost around the 6kg mark, I am in no way falling off the wagon. It’s become second nature now, I still track every single day, but I don’t feel tempted to ‘cheat’. I know that if I write things down, I remember them, it’s too easy to let things creep in. I remember all those years ago, when I did WW (the second time) , and succeeded, I spent years afterwards tracking and the weight just stayed off.

I still have difficult moments, still evenings are my worst times. They are the times when I wish I had chocolate or nuts to nibble on. But every night, I get through it and just look forward to my cup of tea, my Vaalia yoghurt and 2 WW biscuits. They are my nightly indulgence. Naturally on the weekends I don’t have those, because my foods are generally higher in points. I am still eating less than my 19 daily points during the week, so I have enough for richer food on the weekend. It means I can also incorporate a scone, or some chocolate biscuits as well as my wine - so on the whole grand scheme of things I am not missing out on anything.

I didn’t think I’d lost any weight at all over the last few weeks, but on Saturday I wore my new Levi jeans. They look great with my boots and a lyrcra top and a brown vest. I feel comfortable and dressed up in them, in a nice casual kind of way. On Saturday I felt they needed a really good wash in hot water for them to get back into shape. I haven’t had them for that long. So, even if I don’t think I am losing weight, it’s quiet obvious that I still am.

On the WW forum, they started a 12 week challenge which finishes this Friday. I think everyone has fallen by the wayside, but I have kept all my measurements and stuff along the way, so will post my results on the weekend.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Test Drive Mac Journal

I am trialling a new software program. I am such a nerd sometimes lol - I love new applications. I was disappointed that I couldn’t continue using iweb because I decided not to set up a .mac account. This program is called MacJournal, and can be found at at this site

I am trialling the ‘add to blog’ function today.

I had a quiet day at home today. Billy-Joe wasn’t feeling well in the stomach again, so he stayed home. I spent my hours at the computer, finishing my PSE lesson, and reading up about MacJournal. I also went on a long walk, took a huge detour and picked up the kids from school. My legs are aching a big tonight, I may have to have a rest day tomorrow.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

C25K

Billy-Joe and I are still continuing on with our program. On Saturday we did Week 4, Day 1. I really surprised myself. I managed to just keep plodding along. We started running down the road, and then continued along the creek and finished the run on the oval. We even did about the last two minutes up and down the oval so that we stayed in the shade - I find this helps me a lot. Billy-Joe struggled a few times, so walked a few steps and then fell back in time with me again.

I had considered giving up the jogging. My hips are not good. I reassess each time I run. At this point in time, I am finding my fitness improve, I recover quite quickly - and I am really loathe to give it up. Sometimes the walk home is difficult, but that's mainly because of the wretched hills - if it were flat, it would be so much easier - and given the problem I have, I know that hills aggravate it. When I think about it my legs feel like they have lead in them all the time, it's a wonder I can jog at all - so I am quite proud of myself for persevering. I will see my physio on Thursday - hopefully she won't rouse at me!!

I got my Polar HRM on Mothers Day, and it's so cool, I love it. It's red, which is such a happy colour. I hope to try it out this afternoon, I will go for a 5km walk, taking the long cut to pick up the kids from school.

The Cohort part of the last post

I never even got back to finishing that last post. When I work everyday, my computer time is severely shortened - understandably so, but I hate it when I don't get to update as often. Life is so busy and I want it captured on my blog, so I can always refer back to it.

We had decided that our kids would go to the local state high school when the time came. Our eldest was not happy about the decision, as his cohort are all going to the Catholic High School, but to his credit, he never complained about it, but we knew it was of concern to him. All the interviews were taking place and dh had seen many parents and kids come through the school for them, and then people started asking him when ours was. The principal was taken aback when Peter said that we had decided to send our kids elsewhere due to the financial constraints. He was very quick in saying that it was always a given that our kids would go there, and that they would help out in any way they can. Peter was very touched by this, and quite humbled as you can imagine. Honestly I hadn't thought too hard about the Catholic High School. When your husband works there for as long as he has, you don't always here the positive side of the story, I only hear him whinging about how much work, etc he has to do. I don't really hear the 'schooling' side of things. I have a friend and sil whose children attended and they too, were always quick to highlight the negatives, so all in all, I wasn't really nonplussed at all that we had chosen the other school.

Having said that though, I don't want my child unhappy. I don't want him dreading entering a huge school where he knows barely no-one. The criterion I based my choosing of their Primary School are still qualities I hold dear. I wanted a small school with a faith based education -and the Catholic High School will continue in that vein. I also wanted the 'feral' element to be as low as possible, so that the chances of him getting into trouble or being led astray were drastically reduced. I know there are bad kids in every school, but there just can't be the same number in a small catholic school as there is in a huge state high. I always wanted to give my kids the best I possibly could - and we believe this school will give us this.

After that initial conversation with the principal, we asked Billy-Joe, if he had a choice what school would he choose. He said, of course St Johns, but I understand why I have to go elsewhere. When we told him that he would most probably go to St Johns - he just flung himself into my arms and he cried. So, that cemented it for me!

Yesterday we had our interview and Billy-Joe did very well, as we knew he would. He can pave the way for the two munchkins who will follow. He's the type of kid that every teacher wants a class full of. I'm not just saying that because I am his Mum either, because I can just as easily say, 'Look out St Johns when the next two come along!!' Maybe they will have settled down by then, although Sammy will always be quirky, but perhaps may have more self control.

Anyway I digress, as per usual. The decision has been made, the money side of things will be worked out later.

Okay, so that concludes the 'cohort' segment of the previous post. Now Billy-Joe will remain with his cohort.

Saturday, May 3, 2008

Work, Polar and Cohort

After a full on week last week, I was ecstatic that I had no work on this week. Last week was an interesting scenario but a very good one.

I started one morning, with about 50 pairs of expectant eyes upon me: my students, parent helpers and the special needs aide. I was a teacher down and a parent helper down, it it wasn't even 9am!! It's strange how one reacts to situations. I often think of myself as being a bit on the ditzy side, and someone who stresses easily. I am beginning to learn about myself that that is not the case.

I thought, okay, I am a teacher and a parent helper down, this is going to take me a while, but I will get it sorted. The routine of the classroom is a tricky one, and for the newbie - not easy to follow (and at that point, that included me). I'd organized the kids into their reading groups, the principal arrived and informed me that the replacement teacher was on his way. Okay, now I only have to split myself two ways instead of three. I settled down the kids, and started teaching two groups - praise God that I am quite adept at a multi skilled setting, so even though this was pain staking, it was certainly workable. The other teacher arrived, I gave him a quick introduction, told him my name, and said here are your kids. Take over from the principal and we will muddle through the day. He had a glazed look on his face, a look that can only ever be on someone who has been thrown in at the deep end. The first session is over and I learn that the man is on his first day - ever!! It was second break before I realized the poor man hadn't even been for a pee!!! So I directed him to the toilets and talked to him some more. I was on my own. He was another body, that was useful for looking after kids, but wasn't really in a situation to take any weight off my shoulders. When, in mid session the kids didn't rotate as they should have, I realized that I needed to just take over - and just run it my way. I don't like treading on toes - so did this delicately. The next day, I just timetabled the day, told him what he had to do, and we had a good day. By Thursday, we had a few slots unplanned for so I asked him to think of some activities to do, as Anzac Day was approaching, we decided to work with that.

He arrived on Thursday morning with some awesome ideas, and asked me for my help. He knew my organizational skills were strong, and would I co-ordinate the whole thing. I am all for working with one's strengths. I thought it was a great plan.

We had the best day on the Thursday. I put the kids into their groups, gave them their tasks, and we set off on our project. We made a shrine, covered with pictures and coloured in poppies. We also made a wreath, with a 'Lest We Forget' banner across it. The kids were stoked. It was the focal point of our Anzac Day Ceremony which was held at the end of the day. I was exhausted from that week, but felt great that it all came together really well.

Rebel Sports had a 25% off all day sale on Thursday, if you presented an RACQ card. I had to work, so thought I would probably miss out. Thankfully the manager was really helpful and asked that if I faxed down everything he would put the sale through for me. I am the proud new owner of a Polar F4 HRM watch, the red one.....so cool. It's my Mothers Day present, so I am not supposed to know that I am getting it. The store manager on the Friday told me that if I bought other stuff he would give me the 25% off as well. I bought another pair of walking pants and some new tops, and I also got Billy-Joe a really good pair of Fila running shoes.

I will publish this now and then update tomorrow.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Mothers' Day Classic, C25K and other stuff.

My parents are away this year for Mothers' Day. Traditionally, we have always spent it together, and it's become quite a special day in the last 11 years of Mothers' Days where I have been a Mum too. This year, however, my parents have gone away for a few weeks and are not going to be here for that day. My kids have informed me that I can choose to do whatever I like - which is pretty big permission coming from young kids lol.....

Yesterday I was on the WW forum and I read a post about the Mothers Day Classic, and thought - what a fabulous idea. I also knew that my dh wouldn't be so excited about it. I read about it, saw pics from previous events, and could imagine myself doing the 7.5km walk, with a view of doing the 4km jog next year - what a great goal to set myself, and also for Billy-Joe to run it with me. Alas my fears were confirmed, dh is far from enthusiastic about the idea. He hasn't even asked me details about it, but he did ask me why I wanted to do it, I said, I thought it'd be fun, it was a great way to raise money, it was something we could all do together, it was different...... So, not to be disheartened, or set back by such disapproval, I decided there would be other events. So I googled to find another. Sure enough there's another in Brisbane later this year, and yes, you guessed it, it's on Fathers Day.....yeah well he's really going to be impressed with that date lol......

I did Week 2, Day 3 on Sunday, on the beach with Billy-Joe. I actually found it quite tough going. We'd done the day before on the Saturday which is against recommendations, but time isn't always my own, so I wanted to make the most of the good weather. I persisted and got through it, and felt awesome when I finished (and that runner's high kicked in!!!) It was hard running in the sand, the tide was fairly high, so hard sand was nowhere to be found. Plus I was pretty aware of not getting the Mizunos wet.

Yesterday I walked to pick up the kids from school, but I took a huge detour so I walked around 5km. I did a strong, fast walk, and my legs were quite sore last night, probably a culmination of exercising hard a few days close together. Today I ran out of time, with housework and visitors, so I gave my legs a good rest. I will do the long walk again tomorrow. I want to increase my fitness, and increase the speed of my weight loss. I feel strong when I finish my sessions - quite empowered.

Another fantastic benefit is the fact that it's something Billy-Joe and I enjoy doing together. That's why I thought entering a race, (fun run) type event would be a really cool goal for us to work toward. I will just keep my eyes and ears open and see what's happening in the future. I don't hold any plans of winning any events, but I just want the satisfaction of actually competing and completing an event.

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Mizunos Rock!


My poor old Nikes have seen better days. Not only do they look tired, but the tread is half worn, and they have no cushioning left in them whatsoever. They have served me well, with many hours at the gym, aerobic and pump classes and lots of walks, and often just general comfort. I have had them for four years and was really pleased that I bought them, even though they weren't cheap. I have chronic achilles tendonitis and also have calf problems (on the same side), so correct footwear for me is imperative. I can remember my last shoes, I could barely walk in them, and them my achilles problem was helped more by the new Nikes than the $400+ orthotics which I bought. Mind you I still wear the orthotics, they are quite comfortable. I probably should really have them renewed. My hip problem is - I believe also at the crux of my foot problem. I think it exacerbates the calf and the achilles and also the area on the inside of my foot, around the inside of my ankle bone. Funnily enough I have no pain in my shoes, but have to be careful barefoot or in my house shoes. Anyway, I digress terribly, that was not the topic of my post.

Yesterday morning, I thought to my self, I would really like to go and have a look at Athletes Foot and see about some new walking/running shoes. I also need some new walking gear, as my stuff is looking rather faded and even some of the new stuff is baggy and I like firm pants (without saggy knees in them). I told myself that if I got some extra work within the next four weeks, over and above the contracted work, I would shout myself some new stuff, so perhaps it wasn't wise to go and have a look when I didn't want to spend any money yet. Lo and behold, not ten minutes after my decision, one of the teachers rang me and asked me to work Monday!! Unbelievable!! I also had a phone call from a girlfriend asking me to meet her for coffee and lunch - well if that wasn't a sign, I don't know what was.

I went to Athletes Foot, after a lovely coffee and lunch with galpal Lisa - and the people in there were incredibly helpful. I ended up buying a cool pair of Mizunos. They fitted me like a glove and were soo comfortable, I felt like I was walking on air. I walked out of there in my new Mizunos a very happy camper. I told them of my endeavour to run - said it was one of those dreams I'd harboured for so long, but that I'd often had doubts - I mean are some people just not meant to run?? I am not a born runner, I am not a born athlete full stop. But I have a hope that I can master this. With following the C25k program, slow and easy I think I can do it. They told me at AF to take it easy, and that I would be okay. I read on the WW forums about women trying it all the time, and they weigh much more than I do, some of them over 20kg than me - so I know physically I should be able to do it.

So, I get up this morning, all looking forward to trying out the Mizunos and the new walking gear. (I stopped into Rebel Sports on my way home). I felt the part and dh was constantly groping my rear end, 'cause he said it looked damn good!! Got the family organized, lunch all round, donned the Mizunos and the rain just poured out of the sky!! And it was cold! It was foul!! Stuff it, we decided, take the mobile if it rains darling husband would come and collect us. I went out to the porch to stretch my calf and achillies pre-run and it was so dark that it was obvious it was going to pour again soon.

Peeved, we went inside, I changed into tracksuit pants and ugh boots, resigned to not jogging today - I was so excited too, because Billy-Joe was all pumped to come with me. I sat down at the computer and perused the boards at Cool Runnings.

I kept getting up and staring out all the windows - Billy-Joe was resting and was not happy that I was obviously not relaxed, so he just said, 'How about, we just go?'. What a honey......what a darling child!! We went.

Week 2, Day 1 C25k and we kicked butt. Next time we will take some ventolin, Billy-Joe struggled a bit. I told him that doing this would improve his lung capacity. He was excited and pumped. He even said that he would enter more events at the Sports Carnival and that he was feeling better since we'd started walking together. This is so cool. It's so awesome that we can spend time together like this. He is just the best companion. We just floated home! The hill in Elizabeth St and our St seemed so easy, we both commented on how it didn't feel half as steep as normal.....

And those Mizunos! I know good shoes are important, I'd done enough research to know that, I just didn't believe they would actually make it easier for me. I felt so much more sure footed. I was cushioned underneath and felt more secure in my shoe.

I won't be able to jog this week, anymore, with working four days - it will be Friday before I can go out again. I don't care if the 8 week program takes me 14 weeks, I will just persevere.......

Monday, April 14, 2008

C25K Continues

I have completed another session this afternoon, and feel pretty good about myself. I kind of get that real smug feeling knowing I have exercised and done my body some good.  I wasn't keen about going, but the kids were wanting to go to the park, so it was  win-win situation all round.  They swing and climb, while I jog (read lumber/scuffle) around the park. I finally discovered what all the hype about 'runner's high' was all about.......It really kicked in and felt amazing.  I got it when I STOPPED jogging......(mmmm, methinks that's not quite what the running enthusiasts had in mind when they coined that phrase, but for the time being, that's the only 'high' I can find......)


It was a glorious day, so soaked up a good dose of Vitamin D as well.  

The weekend went well food wise.  I have found that if I don't snack, mid morning or mid afternoon, I have loads of points, and have a couple to bank. I have decided not to eat my exercise points, I will see if that makes a difference.  I can go back to eating them once I am on maintenance.  

Friday, April 11, 2008

Thank you for comments

I didn't realize anyone was commenting on this blog as I wasn't receiving notification, due to an old email addy having been entered. I went to edit the last post and saw there were a few comments. Thank you all so much for taking the time to drop by, read and leave comments. I really appreciate it. Joc it was lovely to see you on here too. I still drop by your blog - probably don't comment enough.

Thanks again, and sorry for coming across rude and not acknowledging your kind words and thoughts before.

Have been slack posting, but not slack on my WW journey


I can't have a weight loss blog without the frank honesty of pictures. The above pics were taken on my birthday and then painting in the new year (2008). The first photos are taken a few days after Christmas, and I reckon I'd already put most of the Kate Morgan loss back on.....


This was taken this morning, before going out to take kids to town, and after my scales didn't tell me what I wanted to hear again...... I will take to take proof from all things 'scaleless'!! My NSVs (non scale victories) definitely outnumber the joy on the scales at this stage of my journey.


On Monday it's seven weeks since I started on this new journey. The time has gone very quickly and I am really pleased with how my change of attitude has helped me this time. As per my usual modus operandi I have plateaued at that 70kg mark. This is my fourth week of staying the same. I am a little frustrated, but nowhere near as I have been the other times. I have bought a new WW set of scales, and they read differently all the time. This morning Bunny cut me a piece of wood, so now they sit on something flat instead of trying to find a flat part on our slate floors. I had already eaten by the time he did that, so didn't want to hop onto the scales again.

I weighed first thing this morning, and all I want to see is 69 point something.......and I don't even want to record anything until I see that!!! I have been 70kg for so long, I need to see that six in the front.

I know that I am losing weight even though the scales don't give me that affirmation. As I needed proof, I decided to measure myself. On the WW forum I am part of a 12 week challenge, where we had to set goals and then report in daily/weekly of our progress. One of the things we had to do was measure ourselves and I wasn't going to measure myself again until the end of the month. My initial measurements were taken on 26/3. I was stunned to see that I have dropped 17 cm off my body........and not a smidgen off the scales. What gives, I don't understand that, it doesn't make sense. Okay, I have been using my weights and walking as much as pain and time allow me to, but that's ridiculous. I was just delighted when I saw those figures, I was amazed.

In regard to plateaus, I read an interesting article in an old Slimming magazine I borrowed from the library. It said that a plateau of 2-3 months is nothing to worry about, and that it was the body settling into it's new weight, and that it also meant that it would stay off better. Sometimes I wonder if this stuff is just phsyco babble, but I will take words or encouragement where I can.

Today I took the kids to a small park down the road and I did the first step of C25K. I did okay. I didn't think I could do it, but I managed okay. I hope to go out again tomorrow. Even though he recommends a rest day, I won't get a chance on Sunday, and I am working three days next week, so that will be out......(Why does work have to get in the way of life) When I came home I did my weights, and used my fitball to do my crunches. I feel like I have done a great workout. I am also not going to eat my exercise points anymore. I think I can still save points for the weekend without eating them. If I go away on the weekend, or there's a special dinner or something, then I will, but that doesn't happen often, and that's life anyway, but for weight loss I will try and not eat them.

I bought a book 'All About me' as recommended by Kirsty.

The book is available through here. It's really cool, as you can write in your daily food, your weights, cardio and abdominal workouts. I love it. So cool to have everything together. Probably a little over priced, but I like it, and it helps to keep me focussed.




Monday, April 7, 2008

Today marks Week 7

I have been on WW now for six weeks. I feel so happy with my decision and my resolve so far.

Every day I feel stronger, every day I feel like I have got the right mind set, and I am trying to analyze it very closely, to see what it is that is making it work this time. This last weekend, was a real test, and I passed it with flying colours.

I have learnt that
* I can control my food intake in all settings
* If I go away, I can find out what food will be on offer and incorporate it into my food journal, before I even get there, so that I can work in foods around it.
* I can make good food choices if the family wants McDonalds. It may cause inconvenience and take more time for me to go elsewhere for food, but I can spend the same points as a small 'healthy' McDonald's meal and have a huge chicken salad roll, which fills me is satisfying and is good for me too.

I am looking forward to the weeks ahead and the changes which are going to take place. I am already wearing jeans which I had put up on the top part of my wardrobe, because I didn't look nice in them anymore. They are actually feeling a little loose - I have no idea when that happened. My pjs which I dragged out to take away for the weekend are permanently tied up, just loose enough that I can pull them down over my hips in the middle of the night for a visit to the loo, but now they threaten to ride down in bed - and I don't want to tighten them just yet - it feels too good to have them loose. If I am wearing a camisole under a top, and I haven't put the top on yet, I feel comfortable and look nice. The Michelin man look is fading and I feel so much better within myself. If I catch myself in a window, I am not upset by the vision.....

I bought new WW scales last week, and even though they weigh heavier, which I knew they would I know I have still lost the same amount of weight and I can 'feel' that I have lost more weight, so I am happy with that.

Monday, March 24, 2008

I survived Easter

I did it! I got through Easter and did it easily. I don't know why it's taken me so long to get back to WW. It's the way to go for me. I don't feel deprived, I don't feel resentful when others are eating what ever they want around me, because I can have something too. My positive things which happened over the weekend. Some have been posted on the WW forum, but I don't think anyone actually reads this anyway....actually I've just copied and pasted, no need to reinvent the wheel, I've just added stuff to the bottom.
* * Saved extra points and had more than I needed to indulge a little for our EAster Sunday BBQ.
* Fit in one huge walk on Good Friday. Unfortuately I overdid it yet again, and my hips have given me grief for the last two days. They are a little better today, but weather is revolting - and i hate walking in the rain.
* Darling Husband bought me some new handweights so I can do a session inside (out of rain), and i normally follow up my walks with floor work, so now can add weights too.
* downloaded more up tempo music for my ipod, but downloaded a program which calculates bpm so I can make up playlists to exercise by.
* drooled over Polar HRM watches....
* Went to Mcdonalds and had a filet of fish (accounted for) and didn't feel left out,deprived or resentful of everyone else having whatever they wanted.

Am feeling more positive about this WW journey than ever before.HOpe everyone else had a great Easter and that they felt in control. The kids have loads of chocolates and I am holding strong. If I want some I will weigh out a little of an evening and count it. My only regret is - why didn't I get back to WW earlier? It's taken trying all the other methods to realize (the hard way) that WW is the ONLY way.

Added from WW post
* I did end up going for my walk and I feel fabulous and am so glad I went. By the time I got down to the milkbar I thought I'd go the extra distance, because I felt so good, but refrained as it's taken me over 2 days to recover from the last walk.

My hip problem scares the living day lights out of me. I hate the thought that once again my exercise plans are going to be thwarted. I have finally decided to do something that is achievable, realistic and easy to maintain, and now I am having trouble going as often as I'd like because of pain. Thank God for the anti inflammatories, without them I would have no hope at the moment. I am doing a lot of stretches when I get home, hopefully it's enough. I downloaded a Kathy Smith powewalk album on the weekend and I walked to it . It's fairly fast paced. Sort of life aerobics music, you know the long play songs. Now will be interesting to see how I feel when I totally cool down.

I have been doing some reading of some things I'd like......way too expenive, but a girl can dream hey......


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This one's the basic Polar HRM watch, and it sells for $109 (plus $25 p&p) on ebay. I might ask for money toward it for Mothers Day. I will shop around though. I don't want an expensive one,but I like the fact it's plastic (I am allergic to metals on my skin), and it's red!! It beeps when you reach your target heart rate and does other cool things. I like the idea of a stop watch too, as I am starting to time myself on my walks.

I have read about these MBT shoes. Now they are expensive, but sound awesome...... You can read about them on here. These sell for around $280, but do awesome things for your whole body. Thank goodness it's free to dream.

The visit to REBEL sports store was great. I really liked the clothes there. I will go there next time I want some new pants to walk in. Their tops are really pretty too, and so much variety....

I survived Easter

Friday, March 21, 2008

Another loss

It's all still going well. Quite frankly, I don't think it will change this time.  I have lost 4kg in four weeks, so am very pleased with myself. My next goal is to get under 70kg which would be a great feeling.  

I read a post on WW the other day where ladies were posting their starting BMI and their current one, and it was good seeing the change in something else other than the scales. These are my stats.

Starting BMI 28 (should fall between 20 - 25)
Current BMI 26 (Looking much better and getting closer to where it should be)

I am very pleased about that.  I don't have to lose much more and I won't be classed as 'overweight' anymore.  

Yesterday I walked, the first time since my anti inflammatories have kicked in.  It was so good to not pay for it last night. I even fell into a light jog at times.  I took my ipod yesterday, for the last four weeks, for some reason I have never thought to take it with me. It made a huge difference to how I felt and to the pace that I kept.  I am checking out 'walking podcasts' today to download onto my ipod.  So far I haven't found what I am looking for, but I know they exist.  

Easter this weekend, poses no threat as far as eating too much stuff goes. The BBQ on Sunday will have good food, so not a worry there. I need to work out what to do with all the chocolate that's coming into the house. I am not real happy about that. I have dieted over Easters before, so I know I can manage it. I may keep it in the fridge as I tend to like my chocolate at room temperature these days.  I might even get Bunny to put it high on top of the pantry cupboard.  It means I need to get a chair to get it, and I hate doing anything where I need those chairs as they are so heavy.  

Will report in my next loss.

Friday, March 14, 2008

All's well

No I haven't not been posting because I have fallen off the wagon, quite on the contrary.  I have been doing really well and it doesn't fill every thought of every day like it has done in the past.  I have lost 3.5kg since I started this new WW journey.  

I do wish that I had digital bathroom scales as they would register the smaller losses. I can't see the numbers properly. At this point in time I am waiting for the needle to fall under the 70kg mark. That's something I haven't seen much of in the last nine years or so.  

I am walking, I wish I could walk more, but I managed three times this week which is great, and I hope to get in more over the weekend.  

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Managing life with WW

This time around on WW I have been really conscious of trying to have strategies for coping with my 'danger' times. One of the danger times, is a Friday night. I can eat pretty well all week and then the KFC or Thai meal on a Friday night can be quite deadly I think. So last night, I had a Thai Beef Salad and passed on the rice and curry puffs. I allowed 8.5 points, but it was so worth it. It was delicious. Don't think I can afford to do that every week, so I don't know what I will do on the weeks, we used to choose KFC. I did look up a Sweet Chilli Twister and it was 9.5 points, so I may opt for that, as l don't normally eat much during the day, so can manage that okay with my points.

My Mum and Dad are coming for dinner, Dad was going to spring for pizza, which we enjoy, but I would rather use my points for something more delicious, so we are having eye fillet, with chargrilled vegies and blue cheese sauce. It's my current favourite meal and I am really looking forward to a lovely evening. I went for my walk today too, so that's four times this week which is really good, I hope to go tomorrow too. So I have lots of bonus points up my sleeve which I can resort too if I need to.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Back and stronger

I like to keep 'diet' type of posts separate from my 'daily ramblings'. Maybe because the other blog is 'me' and this is about 'my weight'. I am not my weight, I am just a person with too much weight on. It's kind of like, when you discipline a child, you hate the behaviour, not the child. Like a person who is ill, they are ill, they are not their illness.

On the weekend I spent time with my dear friend Kerrie, whom I hadn't seen in many months, due to her looking after her sick Mum. Kerrie's Mum passed away about a month ago, and this was Kerrie's weekend to reconnect with herself and to have some time to reaffirm a friendship, and to scrapbook the photos of her wonderful family. It was a great weekend, for both of us. Kerrie has lost 15kg in the last six months and looks fabulous. She is one of those lucky women though, who put on weight and just become more voluptuous, as the weight doesn't really go on in any one particular area, so I never really thought of her being that overweight. She has a girl like figure now and looks wonderful. She achieved this with Weight Watchers. On the Saturday night, I came home, and lay in bed at 2am perusing my old Weight Watcher books (and thanking God that I didn't chuck them all out during my 'non diet' phase).

So, on Monday, I walked the kids to school and started my diet yet again. I am using points this time, and may convert over to Core when I need a shake up. I am feeling confident this time. I read a post last night on the weight watchers forum, which told another poster, that, just because she didn't lose weight for a couple of weeks, didn't mean she had to chuck it all in. She wisely said, that okay, you are dieting now, but don't you realize that to keep it off, you will need to continue eating, pretty much as you are now!! Light bulb moment for me. It's not for the short term. It's a long term thing, it's ongoing, I will never be able to become lax.

I am writing down my reasons for this new journey, and my thoughts, I will do it in point form.

* I think about how I look all the time. I would much rather be putting those thoughts into a positive light, by thinking about when I can exercise next, and what good things I need to buy so I can eat right. Rather than eating and then feeling badly because I am overweight. It has to have a much better impact on my well being.

* I want to buy clothes and have them look nice, and be able to buy a smaller size.
* I want to be able t sit down and not feel the spare tyre around my middle.
* Having had two pre eclamptic pregnancies and one which was starting that way, I have a predisposition to blood pressure issues, so this can help me control my bp.
* I want to be able to eat something I like, and just have a small amount.
* I want to stick to this so that healthy food become the more attractive option for me. I do that now most of the time, but too much other stuff creeps in, plus my portions are too big, which is my main problem.
* I need to do WW because it's a tried and proven method. I lost nearly 5kg on Kate Morgan, and promptly put nearly all it it back on again, in about the same time it took me to lose it.....so it's not an option for me. Plus at least with WW I can eat normal food, and even allow small amounts of occasional treats.
* When I see myself in a shop window, I don't want to cringe.
* I want to look nice in my walking gear, and my bathers.
* I want to wear nice lingerie and look nice in it.

I will add more thoughts as they come to me. I will need to read this back over if I am feeling like throwing in the towel. I also have to realize that if I stuff up one day, then I can just get back to doing the right thing the next day. A diet isn't doomed with one meal or even one day, but it's having the strength to get back on track, and not beating myself up about it.

I am on Day 3 and feeling really really good. The evening munchies have stopped, I am eating more fruit again, and am looking forward to cooking new delights. I am going to incorporate exercise this time, and have started walking the kids to school on the mornings I don't walk.

Blog, remind me when I need to re read all this....