All's well

No I haven't not been posting because I have fallen off the wagon, quite on the contrary.  I have been doing really well and it doesn't fill every thought of every day like it has done in the past.  I have lost 3.5kg since I started this new WW journey.  

I do wish that I had digital bathroom scales as they would register the smaller losses. I can't see the numbers properly. At this point in time I am waiting for the needle to fall under the 70kg mark. That's something I haven't seen much of in the last nine years or so.  

I am walking, I wish I could walk more, but I managed three times this week which is great, and I hope to get in more over the weekend.  

Managing life with WW

This time around on WW I have been really conscious of trying to have strategies for coping with my 'danger' times. One of the danger times, is a Friday night. I can eat pretty well all week and then the KFC or Thai meal on a Friday night can be quite deadly I think. So last night, I had a Thai Beef Salad and passed on the rice and curry puffs. I allowed 8.5 points, but it was so worth it. It was delicious. Don't think I can afford to do that every week, so I don't know what I will do on the weeks, we used to choose KFC. I did look up a Sweet Chilli Twister and it was 9.5 points, so I may opt for that, as l don't normally eat much during the day, so can manage that okay with my points.

My Mum and Dad are coming for dinner, Dad was going to spring for pizza, which we enjoy, but I would rather use my points for something more delicious, so we are having eye fillet, with chargrilled vegies and blue cheese sauce. It's my current favourite meal and I am really looking forward to a lovely evening. I went for my walk today too, so that's four times this week which is really good, I hope to go tomorrow too. So I have lots of bonus points up my sleeve which I can resort too if I need to.

Back and stronger

I like to keep 'diet' type of posts separate from my 'daily ramblings'. Maybe because the other blog is 'me' and this is about 'my weight'. I am not my weight, I am just a person with too much weight on. It's kind of like, when you discipline a child, you hate the behaviour, not the child. Like a person who is ill, they are ill, they are not their illness.

On the weekend I spent time with my dear friend Kerrie, whom I hadn't seen in many months, due to her looking after her sick Mum. Kerrie's Mum passed away about a month ago, and this was Kerrie's weekend to reconnect with herself and to have some time to reaffirm a friendship, and to scrapbook the photos of her wonderful family. It was a great weekend, for both of us. Kerrie has lost 15kg in the last six months and looks fabulous. She is one of those lucky women though, who put on weight and just become more voluptuous, as the weight doesn't really go on in any one particular area, so I never really thought of her being that overweight. She has a girl like figure now and looks wonderful. She achieved this with Weight Watchers. On the Saturday night, I came home, and lay in bed at 2am perusing my old Weight Watcher books (and thanking God that I didn't chuck them all out during my 'non diet' phase).

So, on Monday, I walked the kids to school and started my diet yet again. I am using points this time, and may convert over to Core when I need a shake up. I am feeling confident this time. I read a post last night on the weight watchers forum, which told another poster, that, just because she didn't lose weight for a couple of weeks, didn't mean she had to chuck it all in. She wisely said, that okay, you are dieting now, but don't you realize that to keep it off, you will need to continue eating, pretty much as you are now!! Light bulb moment for me. It's not for the short term. It's a long term thing, it's ongoing, I will never be able to become lax.

I am writing down my reasons for this new journey, and my thoughts, I will do it in point form.

* I think about how I look all the time. I would much rather be putting those thoughts into a positive light, by thinking about when I can exercise next, and what good things I need to buy so I can eat right. Rather than eating and then feeling badly because I am overweight. It has to have a much better impact on my well being.

* I want to buy clothes and have them look nice, and be able to buy a smaller size.
* I want to be able t sit down and not feel the spare tyre around my middle.
* Having had two pre eclamptic pregnancies and one which was starting that way, I have a predisposition to blood pressure issues, so this can help me control my bp.
* I want to be able to eat something I like, and just have a small amount.
* I want to stick to this so that healthy food become the more attractive option for me. I do that now most of the time, but too much other stuff creeps in, plus my portions are too big, which is my main problem.
* I need to do WW because it's a tried and proven method. I lost nearly 5kg on Kate Morgan, and promptly put nearly all it it back on again, in about the same time it took me to lose it.....so it's not an option for me. Plus at least with WW I can eat normal food, and even allow small amounts of occasional treats.
* When I see myself in a shop window, I don't want to cringe.
* I want to look nice in my walking gear, and my bathers.
* I want to wear nice lingerie and look nice in it.

I will add more thoughts as they come to me. I will need to read this back over if I am feeling like throwing in the towel. I also have to realize that if I stuff up one day, then I can just get back to doing the right thing the next day. A diet isn't doomed with one meal or even one day, but it's having the strength to get back on track, and not beating myself up about it.

I am on Day 3 and feeling really really good. The evening munchies have stopped, I am eating more fruit again, and am looking forward to cooking new delights. I am going to incorporate exercise this time, and have started walking the kids to school on the mornings I don't walk.

Blog, remind me when I need to re read all this....

Pausing Kate Morgan for Christmas

I went and weighed in today, with the full intention of not continuing with the shakes until after Christmas. I put on .3 which is to be expected with what I have eaten, although it's scary how quickly it does come back on. Thursday I was so excited because I had a chicken and salad roll, which was delicious. Dinner was Peter's new recipe of eye fillet with blue cheese sauce and char grilled vegies, which was divine. I had Thai on Friday night, and then had the blue cheese ensemble again on Saturday night. In between though I have been good, so I am happy with that.
Gina at the pharmacy has said I can come in and weigh in at any time, so that's very supportive and helpful. I will take her up on that offer.

I will be back in the New Year, to finish what I have started............

Still doing okay

I had some struggles on the weekend. I guess because of the week 6 mark, I had the real 'woe is me' attitude. It's hard going, this dieting business. I really struggled making my entire family nice sandwiches for lunch and I missed out on my shake, because I was going to an afternoon tea at the church. I didn't even have my shake. I had some egg sandwiches in the afternoon which were just delicious.

I lost .4kg this week, so again another good loss. The girls at the chemist were incredibly encouraging, and I am grateful for their support. I feel better for having seen them today. Hopefully next week I will be a 60's girl which will be fabulous. I have another three weeks to go before I revert to my own steam, as my income will stop and I just won't be able to afford the shakes.

I will just take one day at a time - knowing that I can pick myself up and go and talk to someone who is encouraging and helpful and they are also confident in my ability to continue. My darling husband is always steadfast in his support of me. He never says anything, but I wonder if he ever gets sick of me trying to lose weight.

A good loss

I did well last week. I lost .8kg and that's nothing to sneeze at. In five weeks I have lost 4.4kg- I don't normally lose that much in that amount of time, so I'm pretty happy with that result. I did have KFC on Friday night with Barbi, which I thoroughly enjoyed - it was delicious. On Saturday night with our anniversary dinner, I added avocado oil to our dish, and I also had a little more wine than I should have - but I figured I would see how I went. I don't feel like I am cheating - just like I am living.

I am resigned to the fact that when I finish this diet, I will diet Mon - Fri for life!

Weekly weigh in

I weighed in yesterday and was a little disappointed. I certainly didn't expect losses like the first two weeks, but half a kg would have been great. I took my food for Fri night, Sat lunch and a salad to add to Sat night's dinner. I ate a quiche and salad for lunch on Sunday instead of having my shake. I stayed away from all the cake/slices/pizza - so I was happy about that. Saturday night's dinner was roast chicken with roast vegies, I chose to have the chicken and took pumpkin and sweet potato (both not allowed on KM) but didn't take the roast potato or eat bread. I ate my dessert of diet mousse and diet jelly. I had my shakes at home for breakfast and brought in a yummy Gloria Jean's chocolate coffee, so I had something nice while all the girls hooked into their cooked breakfasts. Lunch on Sunday was a quiche which had puff pastry under it, a salad and I had a small serve of flummery which was just delicious. I drank no alcohol, until a couple of small glasses on Sunday night. So, all in all, not bad really, just crammed into a small amount of time, and right before weigh in day. This coming weekend, I am not dieting................It's the food and wine convention, so I think that kind of defeats the purpose. We are really looking forward to it.

Something did happen on the weekend which was an accidental sabotage. Peter bought my salad dressing and didn't check the label, so I just poured it on my salad and it wasn't fat free.......... Oh well, that won't happen again.

Last night's dinner was an old favourite, an Annette Sym recipe. Chicken breast fillets in a baking dish with (the boys had ham and cheese as well) capsicum, mushrooms and salsa. Very very yummy. We had vegies which was a nice change from the phenomenal amount of salad I am eating.