Peace reigns

I should change the name of the blog. There no longer is a war.

Do I still need to address some issues?

Yes!

They are
* I still eat sometimes when I am not really hungry
* I still eat sometimes when I am not really hungry
* I still eat sometimes when I am not really hungry

Pretty cool..............

I just about have this intuitive eating thing wired. I have lost a couple of kgs to boot, so I am happy. Am I still overweight, yes a little.............but hey I am 44 years old and I am not prepared to do what I need to do to look like a barbi doll........ Gosh I don't think that's even possible.

I am a work in progress. Actually life is just that........always evolving, being improved, evaluated and changed. Always positive and always improving - I like that!

IE Journey continues

When I was joining WW, on WW, or leaving WW, I blogged often. I belonged to a WW yahoo group and we comisserated and celebrated together on a daily basis. Since I embraced the IE principles, apart from the initital reading and stuff, I don't think about it much..........nor do I write about it much.

I just read a post from Joc
and she made me realize a couple of things about myself. I am not stressing about food. I am not waking up in the morning and planning my day's intake. I am not concerned if I have something coming up where I know there will be lots of goodies. I am finding that I am much more in tune with my body than ever before. I sometimes deliberately miss lunch, because I am not hungry. I sometimes, on the weekends, don't eat breakfast, and then eat in the afternoon when I am peckish. I find that if I eat something one evening, that's not 'healthy' which is usually on a Friday night, I don't need breakfast. I actually feel a bit icky in the stomach, and am happy with green tea. I have discovered that I can drink herbal tea, which increases my water intake during the colder months. I haven't been drinking enough water, and I find the peppermint tea and green tea is soothing to my stomach. I am finding I am more sensitive to 'white' starches so am paying attention to evening meals. Tonight I cooked a rosti of potatoes and I did sweet potato for myself. My doctor in Noosaville, the one who has put me on the hormone cream and taken me off HRT has suggested I cut out all white starches (and chocolate!!). I am thinking he may have something there. On a Friday night, we will often have KFC and I don't think it's the twister that bothers me, I think it's the chips. I will not have the chips this Friday and see if it makes a difference.

Like Joc, I am finding this makes me happier and much nicer to be around. I am happier within myself, content and relaxed about life in general. If I like myself more, then it has to rub off onto others, especially my husband. Our relationship is good, but we always work on it, talk about things and are aware of each others feelings, but me being not stressing about food has improved things on that side of my life. I think too, changing my medication regime is having a positive impact on many things in my life.

Thanks Joc for making me sit down and blog about the positive things in my life.

IE Journey continues

When I was joining WW, on WW, or leaving WW, I blogged often. I belonged to a WW yahoo group and we comisserated and celebrated together on a daily basis. Since I embraced the IE principles, apart from the initital reading and stuff, I don't think about it much..........nor do I write about it much.

I just read a post from Joc
and she made me realize a couple of things about myself. I am not stressing about food. I am not waking up in the morning and planning my day's intake. I am not concerned if I have something coming up where I know there will be lots of goodies. I am finding that I am much more in tune with my body than ever before. I sometimes deliberately miss lunch, because I am not hungry. I sometimes, on the weekends, don't eat breakfast, and then eat in the afternoon when I am peckish. I find that if I eat something one evening, that's not 'healthy' which is usually on a Friday night, I don't need breakfast. I actually feel a bit icky in the stomach, and am happy with green tea. I have discovered that I can drink herbal tea, which increases my water intake during the colder months. I haven't been drinking enough water, and I find the peppermint tea and green tea is soothing to my stomach. I am finding I am more sensitive to 'white' starches so am paying attention to evening meals. Tonight I cooked a rosti of potatoes and I did sweet potato for myself. My doctor in Noosaville, the one who has put me on the hormone cream and taken me off HRT has suggested I cut out all white starches (and chocolate!!). I am thinking he may have something there. On a Friday night, we will often have KFC and I don't think it's the twister that bothers me, I think it's the chips. I will not have the chips this Friday and see if it makes a difference.

Like Joc, I am finding this makes me happier and much nicer to be around. I am happier within myself, content and relaxed about life in general. If I like myself more, then it has to rub off onto others, especially my husband. Our relationship is good, but we always work on it, talk about things and are aware of each others feelings, but me being not stressing about food has improved things on that side of my life. I think too, changing my medication regime is having a positive impact on many things in my life.

Thanks Joc for making me sit down and blog about the positive things in my life.

It's not a diet

I have been following this 'no diet' regime for over four months now. I am following the principles of Intuitive Eating. One thing I have done which I am really grateful for, is I haven't obsessed. IE has taken over my life. I haven't bought every book on the subject, (I have them on my fishpond wishlist, but have bought none). I am really pleased I haven't succumbed.............because -

It's not a diet, it's not something I can fail at. It's not something that may work............. It does work. You just have to let it. Let IE take a back seat. Allow your own body to dictate its wants and needs foodwise. I have even stopped reading 'diet' blogs for motivation, because often they are quite sad to read............

I am happy with my choice. It's working and I know I am a much happier person for it.

Diets don't work

They don't work for me! I am over dieting, I am over ever having to eat second grade food because I think it's 'better' for me. Things that have changed since I ditched diets forever................(that was four months ago).
* I don't think about food allllllll day long.
* I don't shudder when someone invites me to lunch/morning tea/dinner
* I don't plan my intake of food from dusk till dawn of any given day
* I don't record in a diary every morsel of food which passes my lips
* I don't feel guilty if I eat something 'bad'
* I do enjoy cooking and baking again
* I do relish the thought of trying new recipes
* I do enjoy making my family happy with my goodies
* I am not cringing over all the birthdays coming up
* I don't feel compelled to eat everything in one hit, because tomorrow I start a new diet
* I don't berate myself for being overweight
* I have gained no weight
* I have stayed the same weight but lost a little percentage of fat
* I don't have to drink crap milk anymore
* I enjoy eating crackers, and don't feel compelled to eat lots and lots and lots at once
* I can eat cheese now, and still only eat a little
* If I am not hungry, I don't eat, and I don't feel like I am missing out
* I don't get the shakes when I am hungry
* I am much, much happier


I feel I will add to this list as time goes by. I know that my body needs good food and exercise, and I don't begrudge having to do that, because it's my choice and not something someone has mandated for me. If I miss a week of gym............so be it. That's life. I am not training for a marathon, I am training for life, and................. I am a works in progress.

Not that hungry

I am experiencing something really weird at the moment.

I really want to think that it's my non dieting mode of thinking. I am not thinking about food all the time. It's amazing and feels absolutely fantastic. Situations arise where I would normally go for some little snack, and I ask myself 'Am I hungry?' and my answer is a resounding "NO!" I can't believe it, never thought I would ever say that. Me who is always hungry, me who is always wondering what the next meal/snack is, and when it will be and how much it will be. Me who is always trying to work out how I can eat the most for what I am 'allowed' to eat........ I don't even have supper every night, something I made sure I always had when on a diet. I can even go without lunch and not feel like I am going to keel over. I would feel so faint and dizzy after a few hours of not eating, and now it doesn't happen. Probably because when I have dinner, it has some substance to it, and keeps me satisfied for much longer. I know skipping meals isn't ideal, but, if I can go without lunch and then have a good dinner, surely that has to be okay, if I am not going hungry and I certainly don't feel deprived........

I am learning, I am making inroads to eating intuitively.

Body Image

I belong to a yahoo group which looks at the elements of Intuitive Eating. Every day a new discussion is started and I always think about my reply and can usually add my bit straight away. Yesterday's topic was about "My Body". IE advocates to learn to love oneself and to love your body. To respect and honour it and be humbled by all it can do for you. I like that, that has really struck a chord with me.......until I look in the mirror that is!! I thought about my reply to this topic for two days, because I really struggled with it, and I so much want to get past this mentality. Here is what I wrote.

I have been thinking to a reply to this post for the last two days, and couldn't come up with anything positive to share. This is my stumbling bloc - my body!

I don't wait for anything, 'I'll do that when I lose weight', so I know life wouldn't be any different if I were slim. I take good care of myself, my hair is always done, even if I am at home all day, I always wear makeup, even just a little when at home. I wear nice clothes - but I would love to wear different clothes. I feel great, I feel good within myself, I don't feel grossed out by my body at all, until I look in the mirror, or worse, catch a look at myself unexpectedly in a shop window.

So far my thoughts are still at this level
"why can't everyone else be a little plump, like me?

" Why can't we still have the same body desires as in the 50's,
or even in centuries gone by where a buxom and voluptuous woman
was considered beautiful and sexy?"

I am confident, I carry myself well, I am not afraid to
speak up for myself or to be the life of a gathering.......
these are thoughts which I only have for me. They just haunt
me when no-one is watching!.