Back and stronger

I like to keep 'diet' type of posts separate from my 'daily ramblings'. Maybe because the other blog is 'me' and this is about 'my weight'. I am not my weight, I am just a person with too much weight on. It's kind of like, when you discipline a child, you hate the behaviour, not the child. Like a person who is ill, they are ill, they are not their illness.

On the weekend I spent time with my dear friend Kerrie, whom I hadn't seen in many months, due to her looking after her sick Mum. Kerrie's Mum passed away about a month ago, and this was Kerrie's weekend to reconnect with herself and to have some time to reaffirm a friendship, and to scrapbook the photos of her wonderful family. It was a great weekend, for both of us. Kerrie has lost 15kg in the last six months and looks fabulous. She is one of those lucky women though, who put on weight and just become more voluptuous, as the weight doesn't really go on in any one particular area, so I never really thought of her being that overweight. She has a girl like figure now and looks wonderful. She achieved this with Weight Watchers. On the Saturday night, I came home, and lay in bed at 2am perusing my old Weight Watcher books (and thanking God that I didn't chuck them all out during my 'non diet' phase).

So, on Monday, I walked the kids to school and started my diet yet again. I am using points this time, and may convert over to Core when I need a shake up. I am feeling confident this time. I read a post last night on the weight watchers forum, which told another poster, that, just because she didn't lose weight for a couple of weeks, didn't mean she had to chuck it all in. She wisely said, that okay, you are dieting now, but don't you realize that to keep it off, you will need to continue eating, pretty much as you are now!! Light bulb moment for me. It's not for the short term. It's a long term thing, it's ongoing, I will never be able to become lax.

I am writing down my reasons for this new journey, and my thoughts, I will do it in point form.

* I think about how I look all the time. I would much rather be putting those thoughts into a positive light, by thinking about when I can exercise next, and what good things I need to buy so I can eat right. Rather than eating and then feeling badly because I am overweight. It has to have a much better impact on my well being.

* I want to buy clothes and have them look nice, and be able to buy a smaller size.
* I want to be able t sit down and not feel the spare tyre around my middle.
* Having had two pre eclamptic pregnancies and one which was starting that way, I have a predisposition to blood pressure issues, so this can help me control my bp.
* I want to be able to eat something I like, and just have a small amount.
* I want to stick to this so that healthy food become the more attractive option for me. I do that now most of the time, but too much other stuff creeps in, plus my portions are too big, which is my main problem.
* I need to do WW because it's a tried and proven method. I lost nearly 5kg on Kate Morgan, and promptly put nearly all it it back on again, in about the same time it took me to lose it.....so it's not an option for me. Plus at least with WW I can eat normal food, and even allow small amounts of occasional treats.
* When I see myself in a shop window, I don't want to cringe.
* I want to look nice in my walking gear, and my bathers.
* I want to wear nice lingerie and look nice in it.

I will add more thoughts as they come to me. I will need to read this back over if I am feeling like throwing in the towel. I also have to realize that if I stuff up one day, then I can just get back to doing the right thing the next day. A diet isn't doomed with one meal or even one day, but it's having the strength to get back on track, and not beating myself up about it.

I am on Day 3 and feeling really really good. The evening munchies have stopped, I am eating more fruit again, and am looking forward to cooking new delights. I am going to incorporate exercise this time, and have started walking the kids to school on the mornings I don't walk.

Blog, remind me when I need to re read all this....